Proof That Evolution is Real

July 1, 2008

Should anyone be surprised that patrons of Wal-Mart have difficulty with the modest task of fixing a bowl of cereal?

Of course not, but the cries of protest over new milk jugs emanating from betwixt bad teeth and multiple chins is emblematic.

Yes, here in America, everyone, from Clean Coal to Exxon is on the Green train these days, because it’s the right thing to do.

Just tell me, please, what’s green and when it’s on sale, I am all about doing my part.

By buying more shit I don’t need.

Like, maybe a car that’s a gallon or two more efficient. Take that, global warming!

The bus? Eww, no way! Black people ride the bus! And poor people! One of them might touch me!

What’s so funny about this article is not that the China-funding, poor-labor-practice-supporting, good ole ‘Mericans can’t pour a fucking glass of milk, it’s that this infinitesimal intrusion of temporary discomfort (unless the idiots never learn how to pour) has said red-blooded yankees all hot and bothered.

Sadly, this minute intrusion, as many Whole Foods shoppers will likely be happy to inform you, is not enough. That milk probably isn’t even organic.

Please, by all means, let’s go green, awesome!

Oh wait. You mean this will actually affect me? You mean this isn’t like sending a bible to a disaster zone? No one told me I’d have to actually do anything! I have comfort levels!

While the growing pains into a responsible and ecologically sound civilization may be moot (hey, there’s a good chance we’re already boned) we certainly won’t be lacking the accompanying moans of agony.

A prediction for 10 years from now:

“Well, it’s not fair, I shouldn’t have to plug the car in everytime I drive. And you know I don’t like the bus. It’s full of immigrants.”

In the words of Bill Engvall, “Here’s your sign.”

Maybe we’re better off boned, because gripes about milk cartons aren’t the first, won’t be the last and certainly won’t be the loudest.


I Spent the Day Listening to 40’s Jazz.

June 15, 2008

Gramps would be proud. Then I realise, he would feel the way about ‘easy-listening’ (damn, I was loving the stuff laid down….90.5 DUQ on Saturdays are my newest poison), much the same as I feel about complete tossbags who have no appreciation or understanding of and for the written word.

If i could single-handedly get away with dealing a deathblow to lousy writing, shit, I would.

reading yr. bad poetry

if there were anything
to make me feel guilty
about writing

it would be this horrid little mess
right before me.

i’m not going to bother
with picking myself out
from the clumsy and bloated
language of yr lines- i don’t
want to fit there.

if i were to ever have reins
over a class of youthful writers,
i would tell them:

real writers are deeply invested
in every little thing; you
need to smile
and laugh like
you’re the bulwark
of Little Round Top.

real writers gouge
themselves on paper
to avoid visible scarring,

real writers
could give a fuck
about snowflakes, brunch
and otherwise cure-alls. we
bleed thesaurus, we are
dinosaurous.

real writers know when
to throw something away; numbers
are nothing without an equation.


When in Gin…

June 15, 2008

I have this disconnect.

I understand myself very well, I obey a bit too much….It takes a lot of horseshit for me to burn things down.

Friends, parents and random bar-goers have had conversations with me.

In my mind, every generation has a war. The Greatest had WWII. The Silent had Korea. The Boom had Vietnam. X had Iraq I. Y has Operation Freedom.

Here’s where my disconnect connects. My folks, friends, they’re convinced of a war with Iran.

I have told them, this generation won’t take it, a war there or anywhere. Wars have been rapidly declining in honour since WWI, and I honestly believe that the protests the grizzled hippies wish were around today, those would show up real quick provided a second war.

I don’t agree with the war, or any war.

To preface, I did not protest the Iraq war. In fact, I was a sucker. Originally, I supported it. I did not believe our government would lie to us so severely. I expected bio-war dropped on our troops. Some sort of justification for Shock and Awe.

As Bush closes in on the end, I’m happy. And sad, because our legislature won’t make bother with impeachment. I’m talking to my brothers and sisters here. Generation X left us in the lurch; we thought they were cool as shit when we were little ones.

They pretended to carry the torch, then they let it smolder. Lollapalooza, mudchildren, dot-com profiteers. They all have secure suburbian lives now.

It’s a tough age. I know the folks who happen to read this are sympathetic, but I’m more concerned with the average. We’ve got a job to do. This is our country, for better or worse.

Obama is the candidate. I have plenty of complaints….If a zombie Eugene V. Debs ran, I would be on that ticket.

But we need to think big and act small. Obama’s a start. He wants us (our generation) to get invested. I’ve known kids who gripe about this country, and not to reprise the right-wing meatheads of the sixties and seventies, but love it or fucking leave it.

By love it, I mean work. Work fucking hard. We have a large job.

I’m fifth or more generations deep in this country. I’m not old money, I’m not any old name. I’m one of the first Americans, the first to answer when asked, “What are you?” with American.

I’m obsessively proud of this country, black eyes and feathered caps alike.

This is no flag waving, this is a small kid from the middle telling his generation to pay a little attention. Because it’s up to us now.

Let’s get shit done. There’s a country in need out there.


A Fun Project

June 13, 2008

So, awhile ago, I began assembling a personal mixtape.


[shrinky-dink mixtape necklace, found on craftlog!]

It’s not a full tape, and you’ll understand why I’m excited for that by the time I’m done explaining the context of said mix.

If you’re ever particularly lonesome, drunk, stoned, strung out or otherwise unnatural, creating a tracklist corresponding to each and every love in your life, in chronological order, is both refreshing and distressing.

Also, for the record, I listen to mine a lot.

The method is simple. You pick a song for each love. You keep going. This isn’t something that is expected to end.

The song involved for a particular subject could be the song, a song you put on a mix for them or vice versa. One or two of mine made it because of certain lyrics, or even a single line. In the case of one song, the sound of it alone made it the definitive audio.

To take this further, and in an effort to be honest with the next entry on the tracklist, one might even consider giving a copy up for an ear-session. If said entry isn’t the jealous type.

Then again, it might be better to cuddle away with a fifth and listen to it on repeat until you pass out on your desk.

I’m not advocating obsessing, but like any great moment (and ideally, the song should capture the definitive moment of the relationship….if it was a bad one, then pal, you fucked up. To be fair, I’ve got one real misery of a tune on mine), you want to ride it out ad infinitum.

As a culture that loses its own identity as quickly as it affirms it, I think it’s more than important for the average you to sit down and get happy and sad over this stuff. Assemble a full tape (By all means, find that last track!). Listen to it. Find it when you move and tramp over it again. Remember. Tell your kids. But don’t go as far as to say they could have had a different parent. That’s just crazy.

The point is, live in and love your ID. Each track on this mix is just another factor in the equation. Sometimes it’s easier to explain things to yourself if you can find an icon for a given moment. You put those in a series, and it turns out your life is a little interesting.

Bring your film along with a sixer to your friends’ house, share and share alike; you can have a little festival. Stories like that beat the hell out of anything on the idiot box, in any case.

And since when did anyone need a serious excuse to drink and shoot the shit with pals?

EDIT:

I didn’t want to kiss and tell, but then, the point of the exercise is talking about this…So here’s my tracklist to date:

Major Label Debut (Fast Version)-Broken Social Scene
Nancy of Spades-Tony Fahey (To be fair, this is a friend of mine. Precious few have heard this.)
My Mistake-Smashing Pumpkins
Coffee & TV-Blur
One Line-PJ Harvey
Grass-Animal Collective
23-Blonde Redhead
Between The Bars-Elliott Smith


Out of Hyperspace!

June 12, 2008

Sort of anyway….

I’m not quite sure where the time went. Or what I’ve been doing with it.

That’s what I would like to say, but I’m gonna be realistic. The main reason for the absence was a two-week campaign with my BEE EF EF EF. This was a short and brutal struggle, fought across the bourgeois desolation of Squirrel Hill (Squill, duh) and the hip tragedy that is Bloomfield.

I think I ventured out search-party style on my lonesome to the South Side a few times.

Post-war, I didn’t have a lot to say. I was happily present at a going-away party, and had it been a year prior and I had showed up, I am pretty sure I would’ve been thrown off the fire escape. So that was cool. I’ve been writing and sending letters. It’s becoming a welcome habit. As I mentioned, I got to hang out with the bfff, who has been busy with who the fuck knows and her man. So that was cool. I got a lot of writing done and decided I needed a fuck-ton of French philosophy in my life. I’m reading Foucault right now, so that’s cool. I’ve been out dancing a bit, with a swell dance partner. Which is cool. I saw Indiana Jones, which is a total C-/D+. I saw Iron Man, which is a solid B. I watched Lost Highway, which has been fucking with my sleep. It cooked my brain. Watch it. I can promise tits.

I mean, I barely like the above paragraph, I can only imagine how you, the reader feels about it. You can thank me for not trying to distill a whole whatever out of it whenever. So that’s the delay. Deal with it.

I realized while at work today that I don’t really ask a lot of life, as compared to other people. For one, I am giggling about the cost of gas. That’s what you fucking get for not developing appropriate cars, fucktards! Can’t wait till it plumps up even more, maybe the damn buses will run all night, which would greatly enhance any and all campaigns. For two, I’m a very laid back dude. I piss and moan and wynge just like you would expect an art-fuck to, but cut me some slack. There are big issues to be tackled.

Regardless, I don’t make a lot. It’s enough to pay rent and save a bit for an eventual two months in Europe sometime next year.

Also, it’s enough to occasionally go to war for two weeks. Or utilize the Amazon.

What I’m scratching at is this:

Would I instantly need the money if I made twice as much?

Maybe I’d pick up racquetball and get a car.

This is a valid question, because my time on this kind of existence is running out- I have a hazy deadline to either begin a search for or have a different job in 18 months. I won’t say career, but my degree will likely be a necessity. I mean, come on. I’m not about to deal with kitchens all my life. I’m a writer, dammit! I just don’t get paid yet.

I’m not about to grow up, but I’m a little antsy about what happens next. Europe is like the edge of the world for me, in a lot of ways. I have never been there. I’ve got a lot of friends who have been there repeatedly, a few that live there, and scads of writers from there (or lived there) that I have a big old chubby for. It’s also the furthest I have things reasonably planned.

Although, it would be funny if I just plunged off into the night when the world ran out of space for me.


a moment.

June 5, 2008

as a salute to the recent rains, here’s an old one.

commentary on yr. best guess soon to come. prolly won’t be obama (as excited as i am!) likely won’t be MFONE’s sentence (dude is an artist. if my kindreds the dadaists are laughing in their graves over urinals on museum walls (and if you dig, they are), this kid will have his day).

likely it will be my small little corner of this n-gon we call Pittsburgh.

i try, kids.

i’ve got some stories….believe it. up to eyeballs in the new, and yes, the tanqueray and tonics.

but i’m busy with this introspective, hypersexualized hell i’ve been working on for over a year.

tomorrow’s a rare day off, and i’ll be coming down….so i might scribble a bit here to purge the demons.

wet shoes

wet shoes, crawling
home through the
rivers in the street,
the pregnant clouds
dripping love
onto the pavements.

wet shoes
shorting out
the power, drip drip drip
and cold dark, nude and
shivering.

wet shoes
on the sheets
by your smooth legs;
stunt double satisfaction
for salty nights.

wet shoes wandering
where the cigarettes
are exterminated
by rampant love,
rivers in the street.


British (Sea Power) Invasion

May 20, 2008

I had been waiting for weeks, I got my ticket at Paul’s CDs, and had resigned myself to a long and lonely walk to Mr. Small’s in Millvale, because my friends are lame, or play frisbee in these things called tournaments, or insert excuse.

They apparently do not like rock music.

But I do, so, braving the unseasonable chill (and rain) and the 40th street bridge, I trudged five miles or so out to the venue, only to be made to wait in the drizzle for another half hour, though the doors should have been open. A small crowd of scenesters spoke of things like Curiosa, Mogwai and their stratocasters. I smoked several cigarettes, and watched some errant green balloon float into the scattered clouds.

I hadn’t even remembered that there were three performers on the bill, and I groaned inwardly when I saw a dude with a sticker-crusted acoustic on the stage. Then I started enjoying him. Jeffrey Lewis is from the same anti-folk school as The Moldy Peaches, except he stayed after class and did extra credit. He was great, and managed to transcend the novelty quality most of that sound is mired in. I’d listen to this on any given day.

He supplemented his odes to artistic awkwardness with ‘films’. These were, as he explained, low budget. By low budget, he meant something like a Demetri Martin sketch. Fully illustrated, and with his voice as a soundtrack, Lewis spun out two of these in his brief set, and they were disarmingly innocent children’s stories for adults. I was grinning the whole time. One of his better songs was about not letting the record label take you out to lunch.

A friend had told me he had enjoyed his Sea Power experience to such an extent that not even Feist opening up could spoil it. I don’t know if I would’ve been as strong, but apparently, her ubiquitous ass is everywhere. The between-sets DJ played a remix of that damn ipod commerical. It was all I could do to not headbutt someone.

The Rosebuds
were up next, and though I had listened to “Birds Make Good Neighbors” at the behest of another pal, I didn’t get into it. But I was blown away by these guys, and I’m listening to the album right now. The set was smart, loud (much more so than the album), honest and dance-friendly American Rock. My usual complaints about the rust-belt not knowing how to dance were on the boil. But I had a spot at the bar, and was enjoying a tall, cold Yuengling and some quality music- Ivan Howard has a great set of croony pipes.

Plus, there weren’t really any girls to dance with. That would’ve required punching a guy with thick framed glasses and taking his place. But I didn’t feel the drive to involve myself in the inherent paradox of punching some dude who looks like me. Except is taller. And has hair. And is probably more charming, hence, has a skinny pretty girl that likes to talk about bands on his arm. I knew I shouldn’t have worn my glasses.

Some of the Rosebuds’ songs were reminiscent of late 60s rock, at times even some psych rock. It was mostly tight pop songs, played hella loud. This is music I’ll be looking to put on at the bar, sandwiched in between a Toadies song and a Black Rebel Motorcycle Club tune. They played a slower song or two, and segued into a bit of Phil Collins with one. I never thought I would hear “I can feel it in the air of the night” sung at a show.

Then some more waiting, until the intro to Do You Like Rock Music? came on. The more I read about Sea Power the more I love them. They called the album that because they figured it was something the Who would do.

They walk on stage, blessing Pittsburgh for supplying the world with Heinz baked beans, and fell into…a fairly sterile set? No, I’ve heard so much about their shows, I thought. I didn’t pay to see the bloody Wedding Present, as much as I like them. I paid to have my eyes kicked in with a massive concussion of Rock and Roll. I want people jumping about! Yan, foil helmets are not enough! I’m sorry the place is not to capacity!

Then they hit a stride when they played “Waving Flags” and proceeded to get fully into it, reaching climax when guitarist Noble jumped off stage and ran around playing. They joked and talked to the crowd (Yan was mimicking whatever was yowled into the microphone he put in a fan’s face for a bit, like a strange game of simon says) and they were having fun playing. So much fun in fact, that they had a ten-minute plus slab of noisy-freakout at the end, complete with one of the microphones making the rounds thanks to the spry Noble, which unfortunately displayed Pittsburgh’s lack of imagination (or at least quick thinking) with every “woo” fans delivered.

Folks were covering their ears for the bulk of the finale, and I don’t blame them. Someone had put a guitar against an amp, and the violinist was playing with the feedback like a dance partner. My ears were still ringing as I rolled up a promo flyer from the wall into my front pocket and tramped out into the night, only to walk five miles back to my house, err…local bar. Then home to examine my blisters and worry about how much I’m going to hurt the next day. And I do, a day later. I am sore as hell. But I’m sure I’ll be found at Mr. Small’s again in the near future (perchance for the Silver Mount Zion show in late June), and I’ll probably enjoy the walk, if necessary, as much as I did the first time.

But then, I like rock music.


John Edwards, I Am Disappointed.

May 19, 2008

So, I gleefully jumped on the bandwagon before it got underway….

Oops.

This makes me sad. Actually, looking at old news stories, he’s been saying it. I’d like to think he’s just waiting it out. He’d make an amazing VP, would totally balance the ticket, and would bark at Obama when he wasn’t following up on his rhetoric.

I mean, come on, this is the dude who took his wife to Wendy’s for their anniversary to make a point.

I’ve heard that some think Biden would make a fine veep. To be honest, I don’t know about that. I saw Dodd on the telly with John Stewart, and I dug on him. I don’t know much about Biden, other than that he has said he doesn’t want to be veep with either Clinton or Obama. Neither does Dodd.

I don’t know as much as I should, admittedly, but I know enough to realize Obama and Edwards would trounce McCain and whoever (yeah, why hasn’t he picked one yet?)

It has to be said, after hearing West Virginians speak about their choice in the primary, Obama is going to need one hell of a dynamic character (read, white) in the party to really win. Not just a split country win, but a real win.

So far, it seems no one wants to. I’m no Democrat, I’m an Independent, but I know what makes sense. If Obama can’t finagle a good running mate, he’s gonna be on his own. And the Republican war-machine, rusty as it is, will tear him apart. President Blackman-Husayn-Appeasement? Uneducated White America says no!

Jackasses.

I’ll still vote for him, but I’m gonna be real sad when people I know go back to Iraq for fourth and fifth tours.


Just Another Day in the Suck

May 18, 2008

The sooner we leave the better. Every few months it’s something new (old). Civilians killed, locals insulted.

At least this latest is sort of funny (really, it shouldn’t be, but then, if you can’t laugh at things, the world’s just going to pull you down), if only for the fact that it’s so childish: “Oh yeah? Well here’s what I think of your stupid book, doodoo-heads!”

So some wiseass plugs a Quran with a few rounds. I don’t ever want to subscribe to the idea that the Army is a bunch of monkeys and increasingly, ex-cons, but guys like this certainly aren’t doing my country, or humanity for that matter, any favours. I know a few in the service, and most of them wouldn’t put up with this nonsense. Sadly, not all of them.

Same goes for the people behind printing the Quran on toilet paper (though to be fair, if that chafes too much, there’s a King James variety around somewhere, I’m sure).

The real funny thing is that these religions are based on oral traditions. The gospel, Old and New were passed along orally, through sermons and the like. The Quran comes from the visions Mohamed laid out for his followers.

From my standpoint as a socialist, the reason these stories are so fanciful is because they were entertainment. Pillars of salt? Brimstone? Virgins awaiting you in the sky? Man, that’s just as cool as Scylla and Charybdis, or the Green Knight.

So what does a book matter then? I can understand the point. In fact, if I ever happened across a book-burning and saw some Vonnegut or Miller in the fire, I’d likely go a bit nuts myself.

It’s not the destruction of a mere collection of paper that gets to people, it’s the ignorance and arrogance, the sheer idiocy, and like I said, childishness. This is not how a civilized society works. But then, it seems we keep slipping further everyday.


Shit, Serious Found Me.

May 17, 2008

So, I gather from stats I’ve been attracting new readers, and a lot of people fucking love this post. Really, it was a bitch session targeted at an ex. I mean, I stand by it, that’s why it’s there, but damn.

But I scrawled this down (don’t worry, I won’t be posting my fucking poetry on this (anymore)….I think I removed most of it), it’s a haiku, which I am a huge proponent of, if only for the fact that it keeps people like me from ruining a good idea by writing too much.

my blood is salty
in excess of yr diet;
that is why you left.

Dig, wimmin that play guys. Well, not much else can be said, except for the fact that I’ve got too many minerals in my blood to make for a satisfactory diet. Read into that as you will.

You remove yourself from the equation, it’s sadly surprising how quick you cease to be even a theoretical variant in said equation.

You’d like to think you can’t get fooled again, then you’re mid-drink with a pal and they give you that look. Well fuck. Not that I didn’t know (right), but I was foolishly trying to beat said system. Hence, a sucker.

This is old news, but it takes a while for the writer to digest and address. To make something of it. The healthy ones (there’s not many, and I routinely doubt I’m one of them) just keep on keeping on. All you can try to do, really.

In other news, I’m digging on “I’m Your Man”, the Leonard Cohen doc (as well as his poetry….the film made me dig my copy of his first collection out), and the fact that I have a date next week.

Who would’ve thought I would go from a girl laughing me off the dance floor in high school to a girl asking me back onto the dance floor for a rendez-vous?

All’s I can say is, stick with yr friends, they’ll always give you the looks you need. Also, get out on the floor. There’s fun to be had, and it’s not a bad way to sweat.